The Inner Most Feelings of a College Senor

Why is it that when you have the freedom to blog/write about anything you want, you cant think of a single thing. I literally can get on here and write write about anything in the known universe and I cant think of anything. It could be because I have 17 days left until my college graduationa and I still have a ton of work to get done, I have a test in a couple of hours that I studied like crazy for, and I have to be on a blood hound like search for a job so that when I do graduate I have something to show for it.

Maybe thats what I will talk about. The inner most feelings of a college kid who is about to graduate.

Right now at this very moment in time I feel as though I have an undescribable amount of work to do in an ungodly short amount of time. The best way to describe how I feel is to compare it to Cameron Frye, Ferris Buellers best friend. It is as though if I even take a quick second to breath then iIwill have wasted valuable time. It is as if I have all of these wonderful dreams and asperations that all depend on one test, one class, one assignment, one extra credit. At this point in my schooling, shouldnt I feel like I have accomplished something and that this is the end of a chapter and the beginning of another and all those other cliche's.

17 days left until I have to become an adult or atleast pretend to be one and I cant even get excited about it yet because Im so insanely nervous that something is going to jinx this "happy" occassion and then Im screwed.

Its not as if this only affects me, it affects my mom, dad, sisters, brother, cousins, aunts, uncles, friends, aquatainces, and anyone else that has had some sort of influence on the direction that my life has taken.

all I want is to walk across that stage confident in what I have learned, how I have grown, and where I will be go ing from then on.